Sunday, July 19, 2009
Good job, great boyfriend, no drama with the fam, and I'm doing well healthwise. I must say, things are going really well. It's been a long time coming. For a number of years, things have felt out of place. I'm not saying that things are perfect now. There are still areas of my life that I would like to improve but physically and, most importantly, mentally, I haven't felt this good since the year my mother was diagnosed with a brain tumour. It was then that my life turned upside down. Now, 12 years later, I can honestly say, I feel like myself again.
12 years ago, I embarked on one of the best journeys of my life. I travelled Australia and New Zealand on a solo trip for over five months. I was only 21. I had a lifetime ahead of me. Those were supposed to be the best years of my life. I returned from the trip a new person. I was energized and ready to take on the world. But, the universe had another plan for me. Over the next few years, I devoted my life to my family. Years after that, I spent finding myself again. It feels good to finally be here today.
How do I know that I am back? Well, for one thing, my job isn't all that I would hope it would be but I am reacting to it in a much different way. In the past, I would feel so unhappy and lost. I would spend my days searching for something more, a new job posting, a new career path, or a new educational program to pursue, hoping that I'll find that "job" that will help me feel fulfilled.
Today, I realize that it's really up to me to create that job for myself. Thinking back on my past, the best things that have happened in my life occured when I followed my heart. I didn't think, I didn't analyze, I just DID. Just like my trip to Australia, exactly like the time I got into mechanic school, and the time I decided to audition for a commercial. I did it all on a whim and those became the most memorable experiences I've had in my life so far.
Today I decided that I am going to start my own business. I thought of this business idea about 10 years ago. I did look into it a few times but never really followed through. I have made it my goal to accomplish something great in this lifetime. Why not? Why settle for the ordinary?
I've decided that I will document this. Writing and tracking my progress will be a demonstration of my commitment to my goal. I strongly believe that when you commit your heart to something, amazing things happen: doors open, opportunities appear, and things happen to help you succeed.
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